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I usually have a great time at those parties. I meet fascinating people and have fun conversations. But it also seems like the easier we are able to meet people, the less effort we make to keep them in our lives. It is almost like a fast-food friendship. It usually starts with a "Hello" and ends at the same night with a "Nice meeting you." And, that's it. It is almost like saying, "nice meeting you, but I have better people to meet next week" or something. When people are exposed with too many choices, we tend to stop maintaining, because there might be more interesting people, better-looking guys just waiting at the next corner. After a while, we found ourselves with another stack of namecards.
Sometimes there is certain obligation to go to those parties too if they are invited or organized by a friend. Whether I won't be invited the next time if I don't go this time? Whether I would be seen as unsupportive if I say no? In the end, you go, but almost like a "mercy show-up". Then you find yourself in a trap you built up for yourself before you realize it.
They say: one feels lonelier when one is in a big crowd that he/she doesn't belong. I say: time is too short for "mercy show-ups" and get real that friends don't usually come along in the disguise of the dim bar lights. Besides, how many true friends could a person handle in life. The kind of friends that cares for each others' happiness and sadness takes energy. Therefore, I decide, sometimes, I need just to be alone on weekend nights, knowing all the actions are going on in this great city, and knowing my heart is content just by myself.
